A Mother's Heart

There is a true passion that I have for all children to have someone else to play with. So recently Nanny Calli has been letting the kids bring some of their friends while we go to the pool or the like. In the hustle and bustle of sunscreen, snacks, swimmies, yelling, name calling, water splashes...you long for that moment when all the kids are in the pool and then (and only then) are you able to breathe. Then it hits you. You are the only 19 yr. old mother of 4. No, yes. It's obvious. All of the "real" mom's are congregated, chatting, and eating left over chips. Then there is me. I don't know why, but I kind of wish they would invite me over and we can share funny stories about our kids together or even discuss upcoming "family" crafts, or even maybe when the next Mother's Night Out is. Haha. It's true. Yet, short lived when I do realize, "how in the heck am I going to keep my 19 yr. old mother figure when all they are doing is eating left over chips." Therefore, mixed, so mixed are the emotion that come along with parenting at such a young age.