Today.

Matthew 10:39

He who has found his life will lose it, and he who has lost his

life for My sake will find it.

i'll never forget today.

Not because of the two horrible shootings.

Not because it was my first time shoveling snow.

Not because of lunch with Leslie

or an unexpected high five from Jerry.

Not because of a snow peaked Pikes.

None but this:

i have found myself lost.

Lost of self.

Lost of all i have ever been.

Lost of all i could consider being.

Lost of my whole self.

i'll never forget today.

When i was told i was missing

the point.

You. My God.

i searched for You working at the church

cafe and daydreaming at the glistening snow.

Thought You were in my favorite songs.

hands held high.

Thought You were everywhere else but

i'll never forget today.

How in mid-thought;

mid-step You placed me knee bent on this floor.

You showed me what i had been

working for all my life: everything lost.

i choose You. Life.

You. All i need.

never let me forget this day.

for Your sake.